Christ...Our Unshakeable Center (The Journey Continues...)
In my last post I shared a couple of questions I've been living with recently...
- Is Jesus the source and sustainer of my life?
- Is Jesus the unshakeable center I turn to when my life feels uncertain, unstable or unsure?
'How do I 'live' these questions in ways that become more than just superficial affirmations...?
For me it begins by paying closer attention to the things I naturally lean on to sustain my sense of well-being 'other than Jesus' (see last post...)
I then remind myself (daily...) of some things that feel counter-intuitive to the "I can make life work" belief that is so deeply embedded in my soul.
A number of years ago I read Ruthless Trust by Brennan Manning. It exposed how little I understood and lived in trusting Christ. There are certain books that rock my world and redirect the way I live. This was one of them. It moved me to affirm an aspiration for my 'life legacy' - "Gary trusted God with a ruthless and courageous trust." It's been far easier to affirm than live, but it has remained a conscious commitment ever since.
Here are the things I return to (over and over...and over...) on my journey toward a life of ruthless trust...
- I am becoming more little in my own sight
- I am very aware of my brokenness, limitations and weakness
- I am learning not to require success, wealth, power (or...) to validate my worth
- I long to be startled by God's extravagant love for me
- I need to experience the mercy and tenderness of Jesus - lifting me, scarred and depressed after my sin, gently to Himself for my healing and hope.
Like I said - counter-intuitive. Yet that's what following Jesus looks like. A life of ruthless trust - allowing Jesus to be the source, sustainer and unshakeable center of my life - requires me to lose my life to allow Him to live His life in me.
Fighting For Your Heart,