Learning to Rest...
I've been gently reminded in recent weeks of my need to 'rest' by the words of Scripture (Hebrews 4:9-11 and Matthew 11:28-30). This reminder always stirs mixed emotions within me. It's something I really want. But getting there seems hard and elusive. Jesus' invitation - "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest...for my yoke is easy and my burden is light" - felt anything but easy and light.
"Rest" is a posture of my heart that wholeheartedly embraces a core belief that "everything God does is good and everything He does is enough". But rest is not the product of my intellectual assent to the goodness of God. It's lived out in my experience. It's the product of trust.
I'm encouraged that I see progress in recent years. Slow but present. What does that look like for me...?
- I'm placing a little less pressure on myself to live up to the expectations others have of me...and the expectations I have of myself.
- I'm more honest with what I feel - where I feel 'weary' and 'weighed down'- so rather than 'carrying' (internalizing) the stuff that troubles me, I'm finding freedom in describing how I feel to my Father and inviting Christ into the messiness and mystery of it all. I recently stumbled upon Psalm 55:17-18, "In the evening, in the morning, and at noonday, I will complain and lament and He will hear my voice. He will bring me safely back"
- I'm finding it easier to release things emotionally that I would hold on to in the past - sometimes for days or weeks (okay even months and years)
- I'm becoming more skilled in seeing the difference between loving people honestly yet not feeling hurt by them. Still a long way to go here...
- I'm beginning to believe that being 'peaceful' may be more valuable than being 'productive'
- I'm embracing (slowly and reluctantly) that the stuff that is the most hard and most hurtful may accomplish the most good in me.
It's hopeful to see that what Father is doing in me is good...and that it's good enough. I hope you see the good He's doing in you...
Fighting for your hearts,